DEFEATED!

“I’m done, I set u free…you may leave!”

I’m thrown into a no man’s land,

With nothing but misery to accompany me!

I look around and get engulfed by the dark, violent sea

I drown, I scream, I plead for mercy

You’re destined to suffer, you’re meant for pain

I continue wailing, I continue weeping, but all in vain.

  A bit of peace for survival

A day devoid of tears

A night of peaceful sleep, are all I ask for!

Ain’t  I worthy of these at least?

Your life is meant for sacrifice, your life is meant for service

Pleasure for you is a dream, and merriment a myth!

Ain’t I a human, shouldn’t I have desires?

Dream about sacrifice, dream about service

Dream about serving mankind

I feel lonely, I feel miserable,

I long to love and to be loved unconditionally

I long for a companion, another soul I can call mine!

I long for a life, I long for happiness.

Selflessness should be your hymn

And a life with no expectation, your motto

I’m hurt, I’m in pain, I’m living a dead life!

I continue wailing, I continue weeping.

A bit of peace for survival

A day devoid of tears

A night of peaceful sleep, are all I ask for!

Ain’t  I worthy for these at least?

Do not expect, only give

Do not long, always let go

Do not yearn, for it will never come to you!

Do not wish, do not dream, 

Never build castles, for they will tumble down

They will crash, they will shatter!

It hurts me, I’m in pain,

With nothing to look forward to, with nothing to expect

A life of darkness, a life in vain

I long for a lot, none that I know I would get

None that I believe is meant for me

None that I know is real

None that I know will truly last

I live a life that’s in the dark

I live a life running on faith

I live a life waiting for the end!

For,

A bit of peace for survival

A day devoid of tears

A night of peaceful sleep, were all that I asked for!